The Quarter Life Crisis – the miniature mid-life crisis for millennials who are struggling under the weight of bad jobs, high student loans, and our lives blasted all over social media. Given that I turn twenty-five in two days, it dawned on me that my quarter life crisis started about four months ago.
Two of my cousins are getting married at the end of 2019 and now that people are getting married, I’ve realized I’ve been single for a long time. So I’d like to blame the two of them for all of this. Back in August, I panicked at the idea that I needed to find a date for both of these weddings and I needed to find him now. I mean, if I’m bringing a man to two separate weddings, I’d like to at least know him and be in some kind of relationship.
You want to build a relationship? Since I have absolutely no idea how to be in a relationship, maybe the panic is because I know the odds I find someone are pretty slim. But I am still determined. So in August, shortly after moving back in with my grandparents in the name of saving money, I started the online dating thing. I talked to a guy for a week before we had coffee – he was nice, but I never texted him back after, oops.
Then I went on another date a few weeks later, and before I knew it, I was swiping a lot. It became addicting.
At the same time this all started, I developed this insane need to cut my hair off. I still haven’t done so. I’m planning to donate the hair I cut off, but the fact that I still haven’t cut my hair off is driving me nuts. I want something new and exciting (Which is code for I’ll get the same haircut I always get). When I do cut it off, it’s going to be almost a foot of hair. This haircut would totally be an impulse haircut if my hair stylist (my aunt) wasn’t booked out so far in advance.
If the dating wasn’t a big of enough sign that I was having some kind of internal crisis, I threw everything I knew about productivity out the window and ditched my two beloved apps – Todoist and Evernote.
Both, in a week. If you go through the archives of this blog, you’ll know that I use both of those apps a lot. To ditch one is a big deal. To ditch both at once, and be okay with it, well, that’s pretty crazy of me.
Maybe I’m not totally sold on the quarter-life crisis idea, maybe I feel like it’s a tad silly. But I’m a big believer in laughing at myself (it’s okay, you can laugh at me, too).